This post has been simmering for a while. And it all started with a simple conversation in the car with my 11 year old son a couple of weeks ago. It went a little something like this:
G: "Mom, what did you want to be when you grew up?"
Me: "Well...." <I was truly trying to think of something profound to say so I could encourage my oldest son to aspire to big dreams.>
Me: "Well, I wanted to be a teacher. But I'm glad that didn't pan out because I know a lot of teachers who feel like they aren't able to really teach because of all these standardized tests and having to deal with crazy parents. And I wanted to be a nurse but I was really bad at science." <Just keepin' it real.> "But you know what I truly always wanted to be?"
Me: "A wife and mom."
G: "A WIFE and MOM?"
I suddenly felt deflated. As if, yet again, what I always wanted to be was not good enough. As if it was not worthy enough. As if it was not important enough. But I explained to my son that I feel God called me to this very important role and I am so grateful he did.
Here is the thing, y'all. I feel like in this modern age women like me are looked down upon. We are considered old fashioned, too submissive or not goal oriented enough. Why is that?! I am not ashamed to say that I never needed to have 5 sexual partners to make sure my husband was the right one for me. I did not need to travel the world and "find myself" before settling down and having children. I did not need to experience other religions and cultures to know that Jesus is real and alive and has great things planned for me and my family.
Please hear my heart on this. I am not saying that women with goals are evil. I am not saying it is wrong to want to experience life before settling down and having children. I am just saying it is NOT wrong to know who you are, who God created you to be and to be satisfied with being "just" a wife and a mom.
You know where I feel I have learned the most in life? Through my relationships. Specifically my relationship with my husband and my children. God GIVES us these relationships so we can have a small glimpse into unconditional love, sacrifice, compromise, patience and grace.
Lately I have realized I have a choice. I can choose to fill my time with "things" OR I can spend this window of time, small chapters of my life, developing a more intimate relationship with my husband and teaching my boys about Jesus' love and how to be men with a heart for God.
My relationship with my husband has always been my second priority (just behind my relationship with Jesus) because we need to be united to raise these boys. I still want a best friend after my boys move on with their lives.
"What God has joined together, let no man separate." -Mark 10:9
"Start your children off in the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it." -Proverbs 22:6
I feel like I have not really been able to put into words why we moved way out to the country. Why we wanted a more simple life. But this...this is a big part of it. I feel like God is telling me that my role as "just" a wife and mom mean so much more than I have ever believed.
Don't allow your role as a wife and mom to be diminished. Allow God to mold you and work on your heart through these relationships. Trust that He is using you in BIG ways to impact your family. Be bold in your faith and confident in your abilities as a wife and Mama...even when you have days like this.
My Instagram post today:
Because us moms don't post enough "real life" pictures.
Because sometimes it's 2:30 and you still haven't showered (or washed your hair in three days).
Because these roots are OUT of control.
Because when you're had company for the last month straight you are happy to just have thirty minutes alone to not be productive at all.
And what the hell is this pubic hair like grouping coming out of the back of my head?!
Can ANYONE else relate to these things?! Anyone at all?!
#nofiltercanhelpthismess #keepinitreal #aaaaaandihaveapimple
I also wanted to use this post as a catch up time. So, here goes...
In the beginning of December we got a new puppy from the local pound. Someone dumped him and his sisters on the side of the road. Thankfully his sisters went to a rescue and this cutie patootie came home with us. We named him Willie, after Willie Nelson of course! ;)
This was taken this morning. I can't believe how much he has grown! And he makes a great bible study buddy! :)
These guys... <3
We went to Luckenbach with my cousin and her boyfriend to see one of our favs, Max Stalling. Garrison learned to 2 step at school (thank you, small town school) and he swung his Mama around the dance floor a time or three. Lucky Mama! :)
Garrison's baseball team, Kaos, won 1st place in one of their tournaments. So much fun!!!
We had an amazing visit with some of our best friends from Dallas!
Garrison and Daddy got to go see the Harlemn Globetrotters! They had a blast!
Just a boy and his dog!
We had three rounds of Christmas!
Round 1 - Christmas Eve/Day with my parents.
To say I am excited they made the move here is the understatement of the century. SO grateful!!!
As a reminder, Ethan's birthday is also Christmas Day... How in the world is he 5 already?!
My in-laws came for a visit and we took E to Chuck E Cheese to celebrate his birthday!
We did our traditional "Christmas" over New Year's weekend with my sister and her family!
So much cousin love!
One of the perks of living on 5 acres is a private fireworks show!
Due to an infection in her foot my sister is yet again stuck on a scooter. She doesn't let anything stop her from having fun though! Oh how I admire this girl so! She is SUCH an inspiration!!!
Until next time...